Sunday, June 29, 2014

Time goes slow when you wait for someone to leave

We have been vigiling for 11 days now at Hospice House. We talk to others who have been here longer. Amazing how tiring it is. Sitting, waiting, watching for signs...wondering.
My sweet brother looks so tired... I've have run out of things to say, everyone has run out of things to say.
What a time, a time of itchiness....restlessness.
Laurie is quiet now, she is still. Hadn't eaten a thing for weeks. Has no kidneys so nothing out. How in the world does she keep on?
They veil feels thin, I have a sense of wonder. By midday we are all more testy with one another. Everyone is near and trying to walk together.

So, God, help us. Help us walk this very well, a witness to each other and to others.

4 comments:

Robin said...

Reading. Knowing that you are all so present.

Karen said...

I am always amazed at how unique the dying process is for each person. Sometimes it is much like birth with its waiting and labor. A prayer for you all as keep vigil. Goodbyes are seldom easy.

christine said...

Laurie died at 10 a.m. on July 4, 2014. Independence day, freedom in a way she never experienced before. will miss her so.

Karen Gerstenberger said...

You are such a devoted family. She was so blessed to have you all there.
I agree with Karen East - dying does have parallels to birth. Katie's hospice nurse (Amy Getter) wrote a beautiful little book called, "The Lamaze of Dying."
Thinking of you and sending love.