much has changed in my life.
a life role i had is mom.
i am not a mom anymore.
it just is what it is.
i was for almost 29 years. good years, loved them.
i live in a new land now.
i am not always sure where that land it and who i am in the land.
i somehow realized it today...like never before.
I was Sarah's mom. Sarah is gone. Gone with her is that role, that great place i loved so well.
no matter what, that is over.
seems like it has taken me a long time to realize that in the deepest place.
so, now...
how to live, how to walk...
where I am invited. where it builds from relationship.
whew....
